Hi there!
As-Salam
Ramadhan Kareem!:)
Lama kan tak berupdate di sini
Banyak yang nak diceritakan
Banyak tugas harian yang mengikat diri dari kerap meng-update cerita di sini
Di celah kesibukan duniawi, saya mencuri sedikit masa untuk update blog ini
Di sini saya summarizekan balik apa yang saya coretkan di blog ke-3 saya
Yang dinamakan: PhD a Cerebral Jehad (http://jihadphdku.blogspot.com/)
Memandangkan saya tidak punya banyak masa terluang untuk manage 2-3 blog,
Saya akan combinekan sahaja entry blog berkenaan di sini
Pendek kata IndnazzShoes bukan sahaja blog peribadi,
Malah turut akan dicoretkan cerita saya yang bakal, akan, dan sedang mengharung PhD nanti.
In sha Allah, dijangkakan saya akan mula belajar pada bulan Oct ini.
dan In Sha Allah, perjalanan PhD saya akan bertempat di luar negara
Negara mana? In sha Allah, Europe country. Which country?Surprise?!! Heheheh
Eh kalau nak tahu di mana dan ke mana, don't miss out any InDnazzShoes punya entri ya!:)
Buat permulaan, saya compilekan dahulu entri-entri berkenaan PhD journey saya di sini.
Sebarang komen, pendapat dan pandangan amatlah saya alu-alukan.
Jazakillahu Khairan
Amaran: Entry ini sangat panjang. Bacalah kalau interested. :)
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My PhD Journey is Just About to Begin
*repost dari my primary blog*
As-Salam
Dah lama benda nie bermain dalam kotak fikiran
Where it's actually happened since last year
Since that day, i kept it to myself
Like almost every day bercakap dengan diri sendiri
Only now i have guts & courage to type this in here
And press the "publish" button
How sometimes things happened for a reason
Ya, itu ketentuan Allah
Terpulang bagaimana penerimaan kita terhadap ujian-Nya
Apapon yang ujian, bersangka baiklah dengan Allah
And believe there is always a light at the end of the tunnels
I summarized 2010 as my gloriest year
Di mana pada awal tahun tu lah i married to a person that i loved
Then in the middle of the year,i was expecting a baby..yuhhhuuu
By the end of the year, I got a good appraisal report
Dapatlah Anugerah Pekerja Cemerlang, Alhamdulillah
2011, tahun yang banyak menduga saya
Tahun yang banyak melakar kenangan & sejarah
Baik pahit mahupon manis
First trimester of the year, i was giving a birth to Rifqi
Ni kenangan yang tak dapat dilupakan sampai bila-bila
I was struggling over 24 hours
Memang sakit sangat nak melahirkan Harison Rifiqon haha
Yet, syukur sangat-sangat dialah pelengkap hidup kami
Bijak, pandai, handsome, rajin..semua dia!:)
Memang syukur sangat, Alhamdulliah
Second trimester of the year, i managed to get transferred to Shah Alam
Kenangan manis juga pada mulanya
But it's affected my career life
As saya dah bercuti bersalin 3 bulan
My SKT basicly not pretty enough
Then, transfer ke tempat yang main focus is on education
Memang susah nak pergi kursus or what
Hence, it's affected my career a lot!
Langsung SKT hujung tahunku ala-ala cukup makan aje
In another point, saya still bersyukur
Sebab dengan perpindahan ini saya dapat duduk dekat dengan suami
Itulah kata orang, " in a way to get something, you have to lose something"
Tak boleh tamak..
Hujung tahun 2011 memberi impak yang besar sekali dalam hidup saya
Saya hantar permohonan untuk memohon biasiswa PhD di peringkat fakulti
Dan permohonan saya diluluskan untuk ditemuduga
Sesi temuduga itu merupakan my turning point
It was the worst experienced i ever had
I've been bombarded to the fullest by one of the interviewer
As i entered the interview room, she "shot" me like am a criminal
I not even had a chance to introduced myself
Some of the "introduction questions" sounds ridiculous tho
As the first questions she asked was"how long you have been in xxxxx?"
"How come you managed to get transferred? "
"Sure she has a cable (she whispered loudly to other panel)" ohhh mannnn
"You are too young to have a PhD, make it at forty" Fuhhh, sabar ajelah
Not to mentioned I've been humiliated & treated like a student (eventho we are colleagues)
Till to the extend, as i walked out the room & hugged a friend, I cried shamelessly
Benda yang terkesan di jiwa kita akan ingat sampai bila-bila
I can recalled every single words she threw to me
When i was alone, the moment will kept coming
I was demotivated at first
Really, memang demotivated sesangat
It's like ages for me to look at back at my proposal
Almost one to two months i kept the proposal in the cupboard
With no intention to look at or amend it
I was depressed at that time
Lagi menambahkan depressed bila ramai yang bertanya "how was your interview?"
"Did you manage to get the scholarship?" Pffftt
Only God knows how does it feels
When people gave a comment or sympathy looks, it's torn my heart apart
Namun, syukur Alhamdulillah, Allah masih bersama saya
KepadaNya lah tempat saya mengadu..
Tempat saya meluahkan segala rasa hati
Dan Alhamdulillah suami selalu membantu menaikkan semangat saya
Sehinggalah satu hari saya diberi kekuatan untuk buka kembali proposal tersebut
Dari situ, saya cari mana kesalahan dan kekurangan proposal saya
Saya cari journal-journal baru
Mantapkan lagi methodology yang sedia ada
Mencari objektif dan menggali problem statement yang baru
Dari situ saya workout with new proposal
New objectives, new problems statement, new methodology approaches
Then only i realize & see the whole pictures
MasyaAllah, rupanya lompang dalam proposal saya sangat besar!
Selama ini kita sering berfikir apa yang kita hasilkan adalah yang terbaik,
Dan bila ada yang menegur, kita melenting
Rupanya mereka lebih expert, mereka lebih tahu apa yang kurang
Mereka lebih dahulu makan garam..Astagfirullah...
Untuk pada yang tak tahu,
UxxM mengamalkan dasar competing in interview bagi mendapatkan scholarship PhD
We have to compete among us sebab semuanya ada quota
Means, bukan semua orang boleh further study at the same time
Kadang-kadang, seniority pon memainkan peranan
Of course seniors has a better chance to excel
Yet, the utmost crucial part, is our proposal & interviewing session
If it's not strong enough, you have to embrace a rejection.
Kalau tahun ni gagal, cuba lagi tahun depan sebab permohonan cuma dibuka setahun sekali
Kerana itulah, saya mengambil masa setahun unutk perbaiki dan mengharmonikan proposal saya
Asal ada idea baru, terus kemaskini
Dalam masa setahun ni jugak, i keep updating and improving my proposal
Satu benda yang bukan mudah..and it do takes time
Sampailah tahun 2012 menjelma
Di mana saya menanti-nanti bulan Ogos & keep my eyes on online portal page
Kebiasaannya permohonan secara online akan dibuka pada bulan Ogos setiap tahun
Malangnya, langsung takda berita permohonan dibuka pada bulan Ogos
Setelah berhubung dengan pihak fakulti, barulah saya tahu permohonan akan dibuka pada bulan October
Hai..penantian itu memang satu penyiksaan..
Masuk aje bulan Oktober 2012, terus ternanti-nanti bilakah diorang ni nak iklankan pasal nie
At last, it's there! Terus laju-laju apply & send my proposal
And keep praying & tawakkal to Allah SWT..
Mudah-mudahan this time everything is fine
Bulan November, saya bersama rakan-rakan yang memohon dipanggil untuk ditemuduga..
Naik fobia juga pada mulanya
Takut pisang berbuah dua kali
Dan takut "si dia" menjadi panel lagi
I was praying like there's no tomorrow
Semoga Allah SWT permudahkan semuanya..
Alhamdulliah..kali nie Tuhan benar-benar permudahkannya
Interviewer sangat-sangat supportive
In fact, belum sempat saya jawab, ada yang tolong clearifykan bagi pihak saya
Walaupon "si dia" berada di dalam sesi interview tersebut, beliau hanya mendiamkan diri
In the end of the session, one of the panel said..
" Tahniah, good proposal. Saya sokong. Jangan lupa balik to serve at faculty"
Alhamdulillah...couldn't thank you more Allah
Mulut tak berhenti menguncapkan syukur..Syukur Allah
Syukur Alhamdulillah...Allahuakbar!
Now it is January 2013.
I am waiting for the result like nak tidur tak berapa lena, nak makan tak berapa kenyang
Tapi makan jer.
I keep checking my inbox if they send any emails. But none appears.
Let's a phone call kill the curiosity
So, i called one of FSG staff and asked about my application status.
By the name of God, Alhamdulillah it is a good news.
Syukur ya Allah..syukur alhamdulliah..
Now, im waiting for an offer letter from Jpbsm & KPT..
Mudah-mudahan semuanya berjalan lancar
Banyak benda yang perlu disettlekan
Visa, furnish the tier forms, BTN & clear every single thing before we fly..
Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan ni semua, Ameen.
Pada kawan-kawan yang tak berjaya haritu,
Jangan putus asa..saya pernah merasa apa yang anda rasa
We experienced the same thing..
Yang penting, kuatkan semangat, jangan mudah putus asa..
Bangkit & kejarlah cita-cita anda..
Percaya pada kuasa & ketetapan Ilahi..
InsyaAllah.."there's always a light by the end of the tunnel"
Sedikit pesan saya (juga turut berpesan pada diri sendiri):
P/s: Allah berikan kegagalan pada awalnya kerana Dia mahu berikan ganjaran yang besar kemudiannya..Allahuakbar..Allah knows best
P/s: Lepas ni akan muncul sequence cerita nie..It just begins..:)
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Dan Keputusannya...
Rentetan dari kisah sebelum nie,
I feel like dying waiting for the result
Lama sungguh!
Interview bulan 11, 2012,
Bulan 1, 2013 baru dapat tahu result.
Itu pon tak official
Itu pon sebab saya kol fakulti and tanya
Terus minta diaorang emailkan keputusan kepada saya
Jadi, ini ajer yang diemailkan kepada saya. Huhu
Anyhow, saya bersyukur sangat-sangat pada Allah..
Impian saya untuk sambung PhD before umur 30 hampir terlaksana
Alhamdulillah :)
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Dek kerana keputusan itu belum rasmi,
I zipped my mouth for a while
Nanti dah betul-betul confirm baru boleh announce pada semua
Confirm tu means dah dapat official letter dari JPBSM
In the mean time, saya gigih mencari uni mana la nak sambung nie
Preferable in UK/Europe
Cause bidang yang saya nak buat nanti banyak kat sana
Kalau nak ikutkan tak banyak yang saya apply
Kalau orang lain mungkin apply sampai 50 uni
Saya apply dalam 20 ada lah kot
And ada yang bagi positive respon, alhamdullilah
And recently, i received an offer letter from one of UK uni
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Somehow, risau pulak kalau UxxM or KPT tak luluskan uni nie
Tahu ajelah quota untuk UK uni tak banyak
And expenditure kat sana sangat mahal
That's whyla my uni /KPT tak berapa nak bagi green light ke UK
Eh, tapi kalau tak try, tak tahu kan???
Manalah tahu tetiba saya hantar borang ke KPT, lepas pulak
Rezeki la tu kiranya kan heheheeh
Kalau tak lepas, kenalah ada back up plan nak ke mana
Sekarang ni saya dalam stage mencari back up plan
Mudah-mudahan berjumpa la
Erm, lagi satu dok tunggu official letter dari JPBSM.
Tunggu punya tunggu, tak muncul-muncul jugak
Penat dah menelefon sana-sini
Termasuklah panjat tangga pergi opis JPBSM terus
Dari bulan 11 interview sampailah masuk tahun baru
Sampailah masuk bulan satu
Bulan dua...cuti raya cina..lepas cuti raya cina pon takda lagi berita
Entah berapa kali lah kol sana..
Sampailah akhirnya diorang emailkan berita ini.
Alhamdulillah! Allahuakbar!
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Alhamdulillah. Then only i spread the news.
Berita baik, kita sampai-sampaikan..
Semoga bila ramai yang mendoakan, semakin mudahlah ia..Ameenn.
Now saya dalam stage nak isi semua borang/dokumen yang perlu
Then submit semula ke JPBSM & KPT
Lepas tu tunggu keputusan diorang.
Once dah dapat, we can proceed with visa etc.
Semoga semua dipermudahkan. Ameen.
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Met Head of Department
Alhamdulillah, I've met our Head of Department
She approved me to go to Cardiff,
What she said:
-"Cardiff is good!Go for it!Tak payah cari lain dah!"
-"In fact we have a lot of our medical students studying there"
-"Cardiff is a good place,it is small town senang u nak focus study"
-"Welsh people are such a nice person!They're really warmth and friendly. Go for it!"
p/s: Alhamdulillah, a bit pleased to hear that. May everything goes well. Amiin.
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Met the Director 13/3/13: 4pm
-She is very helpful person. When I told her I received offer from Cardiff, she immediately reached her phone and called one of Cardiff's ex-student who is her former fren -Dr zana from Main campus.
-She introduced me to Dr Zana and gave her contact number, How blessed I am. Syukuran ya Allah.
-next, she gave me a lot of advices which I really needed. She shared her experiences whilst studied in Australia. How she handled her kids alone. How she managed her timetable well hence she graduated on time. Infact she finished within 2 1/2 years.
-Set another appoinment n next week to sign few forms.
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Met Dr Zana, FPP.
On 18/3/13 a week after met Director, i went to meet Dr Zana in person.
-At 11am, I already reached in front of her room
-we actually planned to meet a week ago, unfortunately it was a heavy rain and she had to go back earlier.
-By this time, we met. Alhamdulillah
-First thing she heard about im going to Cardiff, she handed me Cardiff's magazine (latest edition). Wahhh, this is another unexpected thing happened to me. Alhamdulillah
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-She promised to help me find accommodation in Cardiff by contacting her former friends, alhamdulillah. How kind she is. She sent regards to our Director by saying "from now on, she's no longer need to take care of you, I will be" :)))
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My PhD Journey is Just About to Begin
*repost dari my primary blog*
As-Salam
Dah lama benda nie bermain dalam kotak fikiran
Where it's actually happened since last year
Since that day, i kept it to myself
Like almost every day bercakap dengan diri sendiri
Only now i have guts & courage to type this in here
And press the "publish" button
How sometimes things happened for a reason
Ya, itu ketentuan Allah
Terpulang bagaimana penerimaan kita terhadap ujian-Nya
Apapon yang ujian, bersangka baiklah dengan Allah
And believe there is always a light at the end of the tunnels
I summarized 2010 as my gloriest year
Di mana pada awal tahun tu lah i married to a person that i loved
Then in the middle of the year,i was expecting a baby..yuhhhuuu
By the end of the year, I got a good appraisal report
Dapatlah Anugerah Pekerja Cemerlang, Alhamdulillah
2011, tahun yang banyak menduga saya
Tahun yang banyak melakar kenangan & sejarah
Baik pahit mahupon manis
First trimester of the year, i was giving a birth to Rifqi
Ni kenangan yang tak dapat dilupakan sampai bila-bila
I was struggling over 24 hours
Memang sakit sangat nak melahirkan Harison Rifiqon haha
Yet, syukur sangat-sangat dialah pelengkap hidup kami
Bijak, pandai, handsome, rajin..semua dia!:)
Memang syukur sangat, Alhamdulliah
Second trimester of the year, i managed to get transferred to Shah Alam
Kenangan manis juga pada mulanya
But it's affected my career life
As saya dah bercuti bersalin 3 bulan
My SKT basicly not pretty enough
Then, transfer ke tempat yang main focus is on education
Memang susah nak pergi kursus or what
Hence, it's affected my career a lot!
Langsung SKT hujung tahunku ala-ala cukup makan aje
In another point, saya still bersyukur
Sebab dengan perpindahan ini saya dapat duduk dekat dengan suami
Itulah kata orang, " in a way to get something, you have to lose something"
Tak boleh tamak..
Hujung tahun 2011 memberi impak yang besar sekali dalam hidup saya
Saya hantar permohonan untuk memohon biasiswa PhD di peringkat fakulti
Dan permohonan saya diluluskan untuk ditemuduga
Sesi temuduga itu merupakan my turning point
It was the worst experienced i ever had
I've been bombarded to the fullest by one of the interviewer
As i entered the interview room, she "shot" me like am a criminal
I not even had a chance to introduced myself
Some of the "introduction questions" sounds ridiculous tho
As the first questions she asked was"how long you have been in xxxxx?"
"How come you managed to get transferred? "
"Sure she has a cable (she whispered loudly to other panel)" ohhh mannnn
"You are too young to have a PhD, make it at forty" Fuhhh, sabar ajelah
Not to mentioned I've been humiliated & treated like a student (eventho we are colleagues)
Till to the extend, as i walked out the room & hugged a friend, I cried shamelessly
Benda yang terkesan di jiwa kita akan ingat sampai bila-bila
I can recalled every single words she threw to me
When i was alone, the moment will kept coming
I was demotivated at first
Really, memang demotivated sesangat
It's like ages for me to look at back at my proposal
Almost one to two months i kept the proposal in the cupboard
With no intention to look at or amend it
I was depressed at that time
Lagi menambahkan depressed bila ramai yang bertanya "how was your interview?"
"Did you manage to get the scholarship?" Pffftt
Only God knows how does it feels
When people gave a comment or sympathy looks, it's torn my heart apart
Namun, syukur Alhamdulillah, Allah masih bersama saya
KepadaNya lah tempat saya mengadu..
Tempat saya meluahkan segala rasa hati
Dan Alhamdulillah suami selalu membantu menaikkan semangat saya
Sehinggalah satu hari saya diberi kekuatan untuk buka kembali proposal tersebut
Dari situ, saya cari mana kesalahan dan kekurangan proposal saya
Saya cari journal-journal baru
Mantapkan lagi methodology yang sedia ada
Mencari objektif dan menggali problem statement yang baru
Dari situ saya workout with new proposal
New objectives, new problems statement, new methodology approaches
Then only i realize & see the whole pictures
MasyaAllah, rupanya lompang dalam proposal saya sangat besar!
Selama ini kita sering berfikir apa yang kita hasilkan adalah yang terbaik,
Dan bila ada yang menegur, kita melenting
Rupanya mereka lebih expert, mereka lebih tahu apa yang kurang
Mereka lebih dahulu makan garam..Astagfirullah...
Untuk pada yang tak tahu,
UxxM mengamalkan dasar competing in interview bagi mendapatkan scholarship PhD
We have to compete among us sebab semuanya ada quota
Means, bukan semua orang boleh further study at the same time
Kadang-kadang, seniority pon memainkan peranan
Of course seniors has a better chance to excel
Yet, the utmost crucial part, is our proposal & interviewing session
If it's not strong enough, you have to embrace a rejection.
Kalau tahun ni gagal, cuba lagi tahun depan sebab permohonan cuma dibuka setahun sekali
Kerana itulah, saya mengambil masa setahun unutk perbaiki dan mengharmonikan proposal saya
Asal ada idea baru, terus kemaskini
Dalam masa setahun ni jugak, i keep updating and improving my proposal
Satu benda yang bukan mudah..and it do takes time
Sampailah tahun 2012 menjelma
Di mana saya menanti-nanti bulan Ogos & keep my eyes on online portal page
Kebiasaannya permohonan secara online akan dibuka pada bulan Ogos setiap tahun
Malangnya, langsung takda berita permohonan dibuka pada bulan Ogos
Setelah berhubung dengan pihak fakulti, barulah saya tahu permohonan akan dibuka pada bulan October
Hai..penantian itu memang satu penyiksaan..
Masuk aje bulan Oktober 2012, terus ternanti-nanti bilakah diorang ni nak iklankan pasal nie
At last, it's there! Terus laju-laju apply & send my proposal
And keep praying & tawakkal to Allah SWT..
Mudah-mudahan this time everything is fine
Bulan November, saya bersama rakan-rakan yang memohon dipanggil untuk ditemuduga..
Naik fobia juga pada mulanya
Takut pisang berbuah dua kali
Dan takut "si dia" menjadi panel lagi
I was praying like there's no tomorrow
Semoga Allah SWT permudahkan semuanya..
Alhamdulliah..kali nie Tuhan benar-benar permudahkannya
Interviewer sangat-sangat supportive
In fact, belum sempat saya jawab, ada yang tolong clearifykan bagi pihak saya
Walaupon "si dia" berada di dalam sesi interview tersebut, beliau hanya mendiamkan diri
In the end of the session, one of the panel said..
" Tahniah, good proposal. Saya sokong. Jangan lupa balik to serve at faculty"
Alhamdulillah...couldn't thank you more Allah
Mulut tak berhenti menguncapkan syukur..Syukur Allah
Syukur Alhamdulillah...Allahuakbar!
Now it is January 2013.
I am waiting for the result like nak tidur tak berapa lena, nak makan tak berapa kenyang
I keep checking my inbox if they send any emails. But none appears.
Let's a phone call kill the curiosity
So, i called one of FSG staff and asked about my application status.
By the name of God, Alhamdulillah it is a good news.
Syukur ya Allah..syukur alhamdulliah..
Now, im waiting for an offer letter from Jpbsm & KPT..
Mudah-mudahan semuanya berjalan lancar
Banyak benda yang perlu disettlekan
Visa, furnish the tier forms, BTN & clear every single thing before we fly..
Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan ni semua, Ameen.
Pada kawan-kawan yang tak berjaya haritu,
Jangan putus asa..saya pernah merasa apa yang anda rasa
We experienced the same thing..
Yang penting, kuatkan semangat, jangan mudah putus asa..
Bangkit & kejarlah cita-cita anda..
Percaya pada kuasa & ketetapan Ilahi..
InsyaAllah.."there's always a light by the end of the tunnel"
Sedikit pesan saya (juga turut berpesan pada diri sendiri):
Mulai tahun 2011, semua uni scholarship application akan melalui fakulti. Bila fakulti yang interview, thing getting harder because we have a lot of expertise there. That's why its hard. For those yang nak apply, jangan tunggu sebulan dua sebelum iklan keluar baru nak rangka proposal. Kena bergerak dari awal. Infact, macam kes saya, fail on the first attempted sebab buat macam tu lah. When it comes to second attempt, i learnt my lesson. Dari situ, saya siapkan proposal saya setahun lebih awal and then keep on improvising. Bukan senang nak senang. jangan sebab orang lain nak sambung PhD, kita pon nak sambung. Kita kena tahu mana kekuatan dan kelemahan kita. Kita kena betul-betul ready. BETUL-BETUL READY. PhD bukan benda kecik, PhD not comes by opportunity, PhD is not for granted. We have to know where we stand. :)
P/s: Allah berikan kegagalan pada awalnya kerana Dia mahu berikan ganjaran yang besar kemudiannya..Allahuakbar..Allah knows best
P/s: Lepas ni akan muncul sequence cerita nie..It just begins..:)
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Dan Keputusannya...
Rentetan dari kisah sebelum nie,
I feel like dying waiting for the result
Lama sungguh!
Interview bulan 11, 2012,
Bulan 1, 2013 baru dapat tahu result.
Itu pon tak official
Itu pon sebab saya kol fakulti and tanya
Terus minta diaorang emailkan keputusan kepada saya
Jadi, ini ajer yang diemailkan kepada saya. Huhu
Anyhow, saya bersyukur sangat-sangat pada Allah..
Impian saya untuk sambung PhD before umur 30 hampir terlaksana
Alhamdulillah :)
Ini ajer yang diemelnya. Kelakar pon ado. Huhu
Nama, no tel, no pekerja & cawangan adalah rahsia. Heheh
Dek kerana keputusan itu belum rasmi,
I zipped my mouth for a while
Nanti dah betul-betul confirm baru boleh announce pada semua
Confirm tu means dah dapat official letter dari JPBSM
In the mean time, saya gigih mencari uni mana la nak sambung nie
Preferable in UK/Europe
Cause bidang yang saya nak buat nanti banyak kat sana
Kalau nak ikutkan tak banyak yang saya apply
Kalau orang lain mungkin apply sampai 50 uni
Saya apply dalam 20 ada lah kot
And ada yang bagi positive respon, alhamdullilah
And recently, i received an offer letter from one of UK uni
Alhamdulilah..unconditional offer :)
Somehow, risau pulak kalau UxxM or KPT tak luluskan uni nie
Tahu ajelah quota untuk UK uni tak banyak
And expenditure kat sana sangat mahal
That's whyla my uni /KPT tak berapa nak bagi green light ke UK
Eh, tapi kalau tak try, tak tahu kan???
Manalah tahu tetiba saya hantar borang ke KPT, lepas pulak
Rezeki la tu kiranya kan heheheeh
Kalau tak lepas, kenalah ada back up plan nak ke mana
Sekarang ni saya dalam stage mencari back up plan
Mudah-mudahan berjumpa la
Erm, lagi satu dok tunggu official letter dari JPBSM.
Tunggu punya tunggu, tak muncul-muncul jugak
Penat dah menelefon sana-sini
Termasuklah panjat tangga pergi opis JPBSM terus
Dari bulan 11 interview sampailah masuk tahun baru
Sampailah masuk bulan satu
Bulan dua...cuti raya cina..lepas cuti raya cina pon takda lagi berita
Entah berapa kali lah kol sana..
Sampailah akhirnya diorang emailkan berita ini.
Alhamdulillah! Allahuakbar!
seperti di atas, nama uni/jabatan adalah rahsia. :)
Alhamdulillah. Then only i spread the news.
Berita baik, kita sampai-sampaikan..
Semoga bila ramai yang mendoakan, semakin mudahlah ia..Ameenn.
Now saya dalam stage nak isi semua borang/dokumen yang perlu
Then submit semula ke JPBSM & KPT
Lepas tu tunggu keputusan diorang.
Once dah dapat, we can proceed with visa etc.
Semoga semua dipermudahkan. Ameen.
P/s: Inilah reason kenapa saya tak excited nak deco/reno rumah..I leave it to hubs to settle each & everything..
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Met Head of Department
Alhamdulillah, I've met our Head of Department
She approved me to go to Cardiff,
What she said:
-"Cardiff is good!Go for it!Tak payah cari lain dah!"
-"In fact we have a lot of our medical students studying there"
-"Cardiff is a good place,it is small town senang u nak focus study"
-"Welsh people are such a nice person!They're really warmth and friendly. Go for it!"
p/s: Alhamdulillah, a bit pleased to hear that. May everything goes well. Amiin.
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Met the Director 13/3/13: 4pm
-She is very helpful person. When I told her I received offer from Cardiff, she immediately reached her phone and called one of Cardiff's ex-student who is her former fren -Dr zana from Main campus.
-She introduced me to Dr Zana and gave her contact number, How blessed I am. Syukuran ya Allah.
-next, she gave me a lot of advices which I really needed. She shared her experiences whilst studied in Australia. How she handled her kids alone. How she managed her timetable well hence she graduated on time. Infact she finished within 2 1/2 years.
-Set another appoinment n next week to sign few forms.
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Met Dr Zana, FPP.
On 18/3/13 a week after met Director, i went to meet Dr Zana in person.
-At 11am, I already reached in front of her room
-we actually planned to meet a week ago, unfortunately it was a heavy rain and she had to go back earlier.
-By this time, we met. Alhamdulillah
-First thing she heard about im going to Cardiff, she handed me Cardiff's magazine (latest edition). Wahhh, this is another unexpected thing happened to me. Alhamdulillah
Syukran jazillan
-She promised to help me find accommodation in Cardiff by contacting her former friends, alhamdulillah. How kind she is. She sent regards to our Director by saying "from now on, she's no longer need to take care of you, I will be" :)))
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Forms to be update
Checklist forms
1) Cv-print the attachments
2) Print IELTS
3) Borang perakuan persedian calon
4) Borang Soalan Keselamatan-print page 2&3
5) Print one more form-Permohonan mengikuti kursus dalam perkhidmatan
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BTN (attended and checked) : 22/5/13
I went to BTN on 25-29/4/2013 at Tg.Rhu Sepang
Our batch was a bit 'unlucky' as we didn't had our course done at usual place, Akademi Kebangsaan Msia
In fact, we had our session at out reach area- Sepang (and I drove alone by myself)
Packed stuffs and ready to go
How sad..it just like a common hostel
While waiting for our 1st talk session
Sorry we cant post any activities in any ways of publishing
e.g pics or videos about what we had in there
This simple things, yes allowed.
I fall in love with my country again & again!
Its time to go back
I made a lot of new friends, especially with Norish (architecture), Fairus (math UiA Kuantan), Hazwani (English, UMK) and lots more.
BTN has changed my pov towards my lovely country. It just opened my eyes how we Malaysian are blessed with peaceful and democracy. I'm proud to be Malaysian!
p/s: Somehow my vote is remains the same :)
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The most weirdest medical check up: 23/5/2013
I classified this session as The Most weirdest Medical Check up that i've ever been tru
I went for check-up at a Polyclinic in SA after received a GL letter from Scholarship Division
When I arrived there, then only I know, Hepatitis and pregnancy test cannot be done in there
It's quite weird as pregnancy test is just a normal urine test. How come the claimed they can't do it?
Hence, I went to a private clinic at sec 3.
There was a long queue and I've been told result for hep test only can be obtain after 3 working days.
I agreed to do hep & pregnancy test after i bare with that.
Waiting..
Then I went back to polyclinic and resumed other test
I managed to do eyes test & x-ray test,
Somehow, I've to come back on Monday to proceed other tests (skin, lung check, etc)
This is another weirdo
They claimed they can't endorse anything if I didn't have hep result with me
Ok fine..
On Monday, I ran to Sec 3 and collected the result. It was good, thank God
Then at 2pm, i was ready at the polyclinic.
A man asked me either i'm going to proceed for my matriculation
Haha, this is weird
I'm afraid if I not heard him right, so asked twice "ha?"
He emphasized, "Are you going to pursue study in matriculation"
Erk..serba-salah nak jawab..Jawab kang, dia yang termalu sebab tanya camgitu..
I answered him politely.."No..for Phd". He stunned.
Am I look too young to have a phd?
Or this is just an insultation? T_T
Even doc asked me "Are you gonna pursue your master?"
Errrr.. another killer question
Hadoi..this is hard when people think you are too young where you're not. Huhu
Alhamdulillah, i'm done at 3.00 pm.
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Submitted forms to faculty : 21/5/2013
Alhamdulillah, all done. I've submitted the forms to faculty and they will endorse everything before handing to Scholar Division. Then only scholar division will send to KPT once they endorse it. Hope everything will be fine. Amiinnn
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Pressure
Two things happened in a day
First, now I can proceed with uploading stuffs via espOnline (KPT's new hub)
It means, everything is on track. Syukur Alhamdulillah
While No 2 is the thing that stress me out!
I still have to teach for upcoming semester with full loading hours; 20 credit hours/week
I'm really stress out and feel the pressure
Coz it will takes my 100% commitment at this stage while I know I can't!
I feel sad and mad at the same time.
I've tried to talk to our new coordinator, and guess what..of course there is no negotiable.
How sad...I need more ample of time to prepare myself for PhD
Owh God...pls help me..
Two things happened in a day
First, now I can proceed with uploading stuffs via espOnline (KPT's new hub)
It means, everything is on track. Syukur Alhamdulillah
While No 2 is the thing that stress me out!
I still have to teach for upcoming semester with full loading hours; 20 credit hours/week
I'm really stress out and feel the pressure
Coz it will takes my 100% commitment at this stage while I know I can't!
I feel sad and mad at the same time.
I've tried to talk to our new coordinator, and guess what..of course there is no negotiable.
How sad...I need more ample of time to prepare myself for PhD
Owh God...pls help me..
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Hard to Make a Decision: 20/6/2013
In life, it's always hard to make a good decision
We need to think wisely and choose which one is the best option
Sometimes we ended up stuck in the middle
And that's the time we have to turn back to Allah
Istiqarah will solve, InshaAllah
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For the past few days, I just knew my sv in my first uni of choice will move in to another uni (uni B)
Which she will be appointed as a director of Bioenergy there
Sound good, is it? For her, indeed.
Yet not for me. I have to change my application then
Now I have only 3 options
No 1: Follow her to new institution
No 2: Follow her colleague (which is also gonna move in to new uni- uni C)
No 3: In the middle of stuck, I received an offer from uni D, located in Europe, not UK as 1& 2 does.
MasyaAllah, hard for me to make a decision.
Then, I need to turn to Allah.
I need to ask from Him
May He helps & show the right path, Ameen.
p/s: Allahumarobbi yassir wala tu a'ssir robbi tammin bilkhairil ya karim. Ameenn.
In life, it's always hard to make a good decision
We need to think wisely and choose which one is the best option
Sometimes we ended up stuck in the middle
And that's the time we have to turn back to Allah
Istiqarah will solve, InshaAllah
For the past few days, I just knew my sv in my first uni of choice will move in to another uni (uni B)
Which she will be appointed as a director of Bioenergy there
Sound good, is it? For her, indeed.
Yet not for me. I have to change my application then
Now I have only 3 options
No 1: Follow her to new institution
No 2: Follow her colleague (which is also gonna move in to new uni- uni C)
No 3: In the middle of stuck, I received an offer from uni D, located in Europe, not UK as 1& 2 does.
MasyaAllah, hard for me to make a decision.
Then, I need to turn to Allah.
I need to ask from Him
May He helps & show the right path, Ameen.
p/s: Allahumarobbi yassir wala tu a'ssir robbi tammin bilkhairil ya karim. Ameenn.
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That's the update for now. Nanti I update dengan "Decision has been made", In sha Allah. Wish me luck :)
